Be a man
stand by your decisions
either you lead
or follow

the next best option is to
get the fuck out of my way (:


au revoir

whoa its so long since i have blogged
damn
alright so camps over
quite fun actually
got drunk both nights haha
it was fun
the president asked me
mitran how can you contiribute to your team mates?
my reply was
i will entertain you all
as in i will be there for you all guys when you all need some one to talk to
thats what i will contribute to you all
and the president gave me a round of an applause
hahah kinda felt special
that was camp haha
miss the guys though
it was so bloddy fun
ian,vance,regu, kingston and the rest of the guys made the camp stay real nice
breakfast at mcdonalds
dinner in school
swimming and all super fun!

played against republic poly
and duh we won
of course
hammered a few rp fellows
broke a guys nose yeah
but yeah thats usual
thats rugby for you



and she said that she missed me
but till today she hasnt talked to me
contradictive?
i dont know
maybe she doesnt have the time
but yeah its alright
after all
what are friends for
even if shes not there for me
i will be there for her
thats me(:

au revoir
toodles

it rained today booo hooo
and i started singing the song
its raining, its pouring, the old man is snoring
and my friends were like staring at me like asif i was some weirdo
and i was like
yeah whatever
im a loner in class

after school it was rugby time again
but this time we were playing touch instead of the usual contact rugby
girls were playing too
when they saw me playing they ooooh-ed and ahhhh-ed
it was like asif i was some superstar haha
they even asked me for tips
but yeah after all i was just playing for fun
but seniors had to play it competitively cause they had to show off?
i mean they are so selfish with the ball, they dont wanna pass the damn ball
all they want is fame and fortune i guess?
and who they trying to impress??

a bunch of girls who cant play
and
gay faggots who cant play contact rugby cause they dont have the balls to?
how fucked up is that?

ian certainly wasnt happy
he was swearing at them
i was certainly shocked cause ian doesnt swear unless hes really pissed but yeah
everyone has got their limits
hmm but yeah seniors can be a real pain at times

and we pretty much hanged out at macdonalds after that
ian,alex,vance and me
we pretty much bitched about the seniors from school all the way there
we didnt even stop when we were there
we are fired up to smash some of them tomm
the lucky few
vance and i were making fun of this girl who looked like jaime yeo(if thats how its spelt)
and she really does look like her
and as usual she denied the fact
but she did tell me that i was not the first guy to say that
and her real name is nicole
and damn she looks good

but what we saw after that was
really disgusting
there was this fat woman in her lingerie
acting so sluttish and i choked on the coke i was drinking
it was so gross and its a bloddy advertisment
at a BUS STOP
what is wrong with people these days?
eeeeeew grosss


i got a match
tomm
and i need my rest
so this is where i stop for today


au revoir

today has been a real emotional rollercoaster in one way or another i guess
i was happy sad angry depressed and fucked up all at the same time?
within a period of 2 hours?
sajc lost to rjc
it was a tough game but its hard luck i guess
my team mates had their heads down and were crying
all i could do was lend them my shoulder and tell them its ok
how fucked up is that
never have i ever felt this hopeless before
the feeling of not being able to do anything especially help?
its really unexplainable...
i guess i was so desperate for happiness or a sign of hope
that i cried cause when you put your hundred percent into something and it fails because of unseen circumstances it just breaks your heart so bad it makes you wonder
why did i put so much effort if i was going to lose?
to some people it might be JUST a game
it might just be a game
but the effort put into winning that game is so immense
that emotions run high...
you just cry... you just break free...
normal people dont know this feeling...
i guess im lucky to have felt this feeling...

We would not die in that man's company
That fears his fellowship to die with us

From this day to the ending of the world
But we in it shall be remembered
We few, we happy few, we band of brothers

For he today that sheds his blood with me

Shall be my brother

Shakespeare
Henry V, Act 4, Scene 3

au revoir

whoa the time is 11 16 pm and im blogging now haha
had a pretty good day today other than the fact that i had 3 hours of break
which was so bloddy boring i had nothing to do and one does get tired of cs or fifa after a while
and my phone went off during a test
which was like damn... my teacher actually thought i was playing music on my lappie?
wtf hahah and he was like off it....
he calls me handsome cause he cant pronounce my name?
and he cant even pronounce handsome properly he goes hamsen or it ends with an m
yeah whatever
and off to training i was like shittzzzz!
the field didnt look like a field it look like one big mud puddle
damn the field was so scary
my white t shirt became brownnn
but yeah who cares cause im not the one washing it??
and as usual jackasses had to be late for training and we
had to do bull runss
it a form of sweet torture actually
running from one end of the field to the other repeatedly without being tackled
and regu got elbowed in the eye
oooh which split open his right eyebrow
i think its 10 stitches hahah
poor fellloowww hes waiting to be stitched now
he just messaged me and his sisters are waiting there with him... he wants to play on friday but i doubt he can
i feel like a superstar at times but yeah
reality knocks on the door
and says
wake up bitch
haha

my:
legs are aching
school's a bitch
eyes are closing so yeah

toodles

au revoir

hmmm what should my first entry about??
love
life
chocolate
sex
or everything in between?
or maybe the people who have been there for me?
people have been there for me
but never with full heart
half of them are just half hearted fools
who pretend
if you wanna pretend go ahead
i cant say anything and dont wish to say anything
cause its jsut a waste of my time and energy
but well i started this blog
thanks to that one person
whom im lucky to have as a friend
and more than a friend haha

toodles

RULES
be nice
say helllo
then please
and thank you

I know you love it, Mitran [:
Your dearest diary knows that you love freddo
A better person youre trying to be for her
chocolates make me hyper ,
im flash
yeah and she loves me so does my diary[:

(:

you(: