@ 9:13 PM
today has been a real emotional rollercoaster in one way or another i guessi was happy sad angry depressed and fucked up all at the same time?
within a period of 2 hours?
sajc lost to rjc
it was a tough game but its hard luck i guess
my team mates had their heads down and were crying
all i could do was lend them my shoulder and tell them its ok
how fucked up is that
never have i ever felt this hopeless before
the feeling of not being able to do anything especially help?
its really unexplainable...
i guess i was so desperate for happiness or a sign of hope
that i cried cause when you put your hundred percent into something and it fails because of unseen circumstances it just breaks your heart so bad it makes you wonder
why did i put so much effort if i was going to lose?
to some people it might be JUST a game
it might just be a game
but the effort put into winning that game is so immense
that emotions run high...
you just cry... you just break free...
normal people dont know this feeling...
i guess im lucky to have felt this feeling...
We would not die in that man's company
That fears his fellowship to die with us
From this day to the ending of the world
But we in it shall be remembered
We few, we happy few, we band of brothers
For he today that sheds his blood with me
Shall be my brother
Shakespeare
Henry V, Act 4, Scene 3
au revoir